She/her part 1

red-hair-1I was walking down the steps contemplating if I should wait for my next class, I turned my head slightly  and across me there she was. A smile on her face, she changed her hair nahh straightened it and dyed it red, just the front part, she looked gorgeous. I didn’t want to stare for long, damn I almost missed a step. I wanted to say hi, in fact am always the first to say hi just to be in control because with her I stagger for words and loose my train of thoughts. I didn’t say hi in fact I hastened my pace just to reach the exist door first. I didn’t look back, I wanted to know if she had seen me but still didn’t look back. I wonder if am in her thoughts, as she is in mine. I guess am left with that.




arm-1Awhile back i was displeased with a close friend and i chose silence as retaliation. Silence is a big part of me, so they didn’t notice my anger. However tragic knocked me back to my senses, a stranger that i like to think i came to know was laid six feet under. Death cleared my vision. I wronged you. It has been a while now as i try each day to make amends but you fear the unknown. Yet again, two souls have been taken from the face of this earth before my eyes. I can’t claim to have really known them well. What am trying to say is that baby don’t hold on to what is toxic. I know different Sh*t weigh us down differently, i ain’t in your shoe, i don’t know how low you have gone. Am reaching out, my arms stretched out, you can hold on whenever. Death has yet again reminded me how it is close to life. I am writing because am breathing now. I don’t know about the next minutes of life just that am in love with you and it will remain so-eternity. Let go, try looking up,am here, hold on to me please.